Thoughts

So my summer so far has been work and less play. I do love my job they give me oppurtunities to grow and they also teach me alot. I have also taken alot of initiative which was never given the chance to at my previous jobs. I worried as well how long will this job last. I have quit and been lay offed because they closed there doors and also fired because I was in experience and to young to do my Job and that was from a christian based store. Lovely hey, so know I'm nervous but also excited about this job. Thanks to my good friend Kimmies mom who got me this job and I have excelled. It's kinda funny because I said when I was younger I would never work at an office because I never wanted to be tied down all day. I think Gods kinda laughing about that. I also know that he's been challenging me this year. This year went from Organizing and keeping the youth program alive in our church while they hire a youth pastor. That was an eye opener, I guess I didn't realize how much it took to run a youth program so it would stay alive. Probaly did half the work that Pastor Lee does and yes I call him Pastor Lee why you might ask because I think that it is a respect thing, I do occasionally slip up and call him Lee but for me to call him Pastor Helps me not to take him for granted. He is doing such an amazing Job I can't believe it, I pray everyday for him to not burn himself out.

Then I took some time off of youth it wasn't long probably a month. Why some might ask why I did that. Because I forgot about God, How did I do that you might ask. I took so much on that I forgot to breath. I didn't have a night to myself between worship band, youth and being a sunday school teacher to the same kids I see at youth. Also had a job on top of that. I got reconnected abit but I still struggle everyday. This summer I'm working full time and that took away from me being at camp kadesh. I miss it there, being with those kids and counselling in a cabin I love every minute of it. I started reading Jesus Lover of a womens soul, It really neat hering the stories and details behind someof the stories in the bible about women.

I'm glad I have the summer off, us youth leaders have to prepare for this meeting we have coming up in August. We are talking about our missions statement also talking about caricullum, designing a volunteer application and deciding on a name for our youth group. I really don't know what to name our youth group, never created a missions statement before and I don't now what to teach the kids in youth. I can't stop thinking about it, You can't just have any old name it needs to be challenging and thought provoking and don't forget cool.

Also I see a big challenge coming up in our family a big one that is going to be hard this fall. My Grandma who is not doing so well, She is slowly going down hill. she just is giving up, It sad really it is. Me and my two cousins brianne and Janelle we are close in age and we used to be inseperable. She didn't remeber who we are. At first it was sad and it kinda hurt a bit. It hurts to much to see that its slowly breaking my heart. I know that she is not going to make it till christmas. She got sick recently and they have to use a lift to get her in and out of bed, when before she could do it with the assistants of a nurse. she can't even remeber what she reads.

My Weekend

So I now that I should be working right know but thats not possible yet any way. So I'm going to post. Some of you have noticed my grammar and spelling, I have noticed and well I really can't explain it. I used to be at the top of my class with spelling. Some think I have gotten lazy and don't care. which by the way is not true. Some grammar I get and some is just confussing because no one has explained it correctly. In high school english they used to give us grammar work sheets and we went to town. Grammar lessons stopped in Grade 8 after that you were given work sheets and you had to figure it out on your owne. It gets really bad when I'm tired I forget letters and stuff. Believe it or not I do read through and edit.

So this past weekend went to Camp Kadesh and spent time with my sista from a different mista. It make sense to us. Any way me and John were there. I had an awesome weekend any way not sure about John. We kinda pooped him out a bit well maybe alot. If you know me and kimmy we can be a little out there sometimes. Even random at times. So we get there friday head in to PA because thats the thing to do. She wanted to make us some Iced Coffee so we head to shoppers, she bought cream for it of course the flavored stuff. She saw this random frog kiddy pool and bought it. If you now john he can pretty much fold in half. I do have pics maybe I will post them, he won't know. So we decide that night to go Kyaking and swimming. Johns first time. So we went and faintly in the sky was the pallest of green dancing in the sky Northern lights. People say that they only appear in August well thats not true because I saw them all three of us did.
Then we went for a late night swim. John can't swim that good so we made him wear a Lifejacket and gave him a noodle. It was funny and we got eaten a live by lovely bugs. Then all three of us woke up to watch the sun rise. Thats right we woke up at 4 AM to whatch the sun rise it was awesome John played his guitar and we sang and did silly things and watched the fish jump. It was cool because on one side of the lake there was a thunder and lighting storm and on the other side where we were there was the sun rise. It was beautiful. We went back to bed and me and kimmy were in a cabin and John was in his tent. The storm made its way over shortly after that and well if you have ever experienced a thunderstorm up north in a cabin with thin walls. It feels like minor tremors after an earth quake its scary. So we made John sleep in a cabin. Then we went to PA to go shopping because it was her brothers birthday. Of course we dragged John with us. We got side tracked once at stitches cause the had ober cute shirts. John did buy a shirt it's cute or should i say sharp. He said that we were pretty good but he won't go shopping with girls anytime soon. We got back and John went straight to his tent and slept till late that night. I bought streamers to decorate my sisters office because I could and gave her peanut butter MM's. We did go swimming in the after noon and played with the frog and surf bords and I got to blob one of the staff, who was a former camper of mine. Oh then we sent John on the Jungle swing then they dared me to go and I freaked I don't no why I did and I failed a dare.

News Flash Amy failed a dare that never happens now John is never going to let me live that down niether will kimmy. One of these days I will get over my fear. I did go on the Whipper witch is higher then this swing. The only nerve racking thing about the whipper is the free fall part and going up the rickitty latter. Then it was sunday and well we left around noon I didn't want to leave because I didn't want to go back to work. I love my job but I don't like the person that I will be stuck sharing a desk with. She likes to shove her work onto me. I do have a confession though I went to another spa party and bought an the instant manicure now my hands will be wonderful.

I know that guys have a hard time grasping the concept of why women like spas and pampering them selves. Well women like physical touch thats why they like holding hands and cuddling. Plus is something that we get to do for our selves we get to feel rejuvenated and fresh and relaxed and not worry in that moment what we need to do. The best gift someone could give me is anything to do with spas. Anything that I can do for my self to make me feel great.

Sorry all my Male readers

So I have a beef and it's not going a way and it will always be a problem. Now I could hate Eve because she is techniquely, Why women every were suffer and I'm not just talking about my monthly but how much it cost to be one. The other day I had to go and out and buy a bathing suite a good supporting one well, because I don't have the smallest of chest witch by the way is not fun. I do have some workable ones but when your playing water b-ball they are not practical they just don't hold the girls in so I went to the only specialty swim wear shop and I paid $100 for one. I could have gotten one at sears or walmart but seriously I don't won't one that looks old ladyish. Also I want it to last more then a month. I don't get why they can't be a descent price I have a hard time spending that much on clothes. No I'm not PMS ing right now I'm just annoyed. It costed me $30 or more for Faminen Products, Shampoo and Conditioner, Body Wash, Shaving Gel. Thats roughly what women have to pay these days thats not including make-up and don't get me started on that. The Slogan have a "Happy period", sorry but thats not possible when your suffering from cramps and you just want to reach in a yank out your uterus and drinking water sorry I retain enough fluids already don't need any more in me, when I'm menstrating. Going and excercise will ease you of your cramps, The only thing that will relieve me of is bitting off a males head. I hate it when guys say its not that bad, ok well then how is having fainting spells and throughing up and shooting pain like someone is constintly twisting your insides not that bad. I could just smack them................

FaMiLy

This is the newest edition to our family, Danica Joelle Caroline Epp, She is my Niece. Why the big name you might ask is because Caroline is my Grandmas middle name. Our Grandma is really special to all of us. She takes the time to talk to us to get to know us. I love her and all her crazy stories she has from when she was our age. She celebrated her 85th birthday May 26th, I want to share pics with you, from wolsley, SK.


Me and my Oldest sister Arleen who is the Assistant Camp Director at Camp Kadesh. We are on the swinging bridge.

This is my Family left to right we have Anthony and Lynette she is pregnant in this picture with Danica the Dad and myself, Mom and Arleen who is dating Arlen right beside her, Then we have Ang and Russ in the Back and she is also pregnant with Liam. but you can't see her belly.

The lovly youg Lady in the middle is my Grandma Betty Willway and her Three Girls my Aunts, Left to right Jeanette. My mom Shirley and Barbara.

The bellys

This just in I have a Niece, yep Thats right a nephew and a Neice all in one month.
Her name is Danica Joel Caroline Epp. 8lbs 11oz. Haven't seen her yet. She was born at 9:49pm June 28th. So Like I said it will be awesome see them grow this summer..........
Hehehe.....


So this summer is going to be different. Way different, I usually take a few weeks off and go work up a Camp Kadesh. Its steller. Most beautiful place to be. It's located on a prime place at christopher lake. It's simply gorgeous darling you must see it. Any way this year I can't. I started a new Full time job and being full time you can't take as much time as you want to take off. I will miss pillow fights and popcorn parties and camp fires the breathe taking northern lights. All the fun stuff the you do with a cabin full of girls.





This will be a time were I can spend on me, thats wierd to say I never take the time any more to tap in to what God has for me. I have to be honest I don't know when I read my bible last. I'm a youth leader I'm supposed to be into the bible every day soking it in. I'm also a sunday school teacher but next year i won't be to busy. Between youth and worship band. This summer I'm going to have me time. Its going to be hard but I'm going to do it. I want to find who I am in christ, I know longer want to be defined by my friends. I don't understand it all yet but I will get there.





I also need to find an appartment for me and kimmy to live in for the fall. Hopefully I can. It will be nice to spread my wings again. It will be a great summer whatching Liam Russel. Grow this summer and spoil him.

Another rant from yours trully

So Yep I'm an Aunty its great. I have a Nephew Liam Russel Ens adorable guy. So excited about it and in a couple more weeks I will become an aunty one more time. Maybe a girl.....

So I have an issue with MSN yep thats right I do. I do think that its a great idea you don't want to talk on the phone thats fine just log into msn and have a convo with someone either who is long distance (saves on phone bills) but the thing is. Know one really sees how you truely react. With out realizing you offend someone. Yep you do, It can happen as simply as not responding quick enough to someone when you are busy doing something else or If you leave it on. I'm famous for that one. I don't understand how you can see that I'm not going to talk to you when there is no problem in the first place. They jump from extreme to another why is that. When I phone a friend on the phone and they don't answer I don't think for one instant they are ignoring my call so why is it so different on msn.

So I will be posting baby pics soon I just have to filter through them a bit.... So stay tuned more to come.........

just some random thoughts

So this month is my birthday month, The month in which I celebrate my life and how old I am. I just turned 22. Its exciting but a little weird, 22 not much has changed ecept that I have a car know I still live at home. Not by choice It was either I bought a car or move out. I work with you so it makes sense that I buy a car, seeing as most of them live out of town. Also recently I have a wonderful job, but tomorrow is last day of probation, Last job they fired me 2 days before it was over. So naturally I have angziety about that. I also pierced my nose. I thought that I would be sneezing alot seeing as I do that a lot when there is something there like a booger. Yep thats right. I have also decided to move out with my bestfriend who is like a sister to me, I'm kinda nervous can't deny that. Its a big decision but if I pace and have a strick buget it will be ok. We were thinking Osler, the more I think about the more I get excited but then I think about how much gas would I be using and with the prices would that be fesible. I also have another head ache me and my other friend both like the same guy. He's a great guy i won't deny that but it seems to me that we have more in common. but maybe its delusion. and thats another thing I like a guy and then bam, I put my self down saying how he deserves a better girl, someone who isn't damaged like I am. Its a crazy world out there. but for me I actually like him as a friend. In all my life I have never had a friend ship with a male. Only because I hated them, I thought all guys were the same. The typical mennonite thinking women should be seen and not heard. Well I think thats crock. But know that I'm older there are still men who think that whether they know it or not. Sometimes there actions speak louder then words. I have come to a realization that God has created us different yes but for a reason so that we may live in harmony, something that Satan likes to mess with. Have you noticed latly that Women are emontionally strong and Men are physically strong. God created us so differently the reason why we are so emotional and nuturing because we are to be instruments in which we teach young people today, We have something so special, I hate that satan has a different option out there that is more devistating. I don't get how they can say that it won't hurt. When in fact they have to enduse labor. I haven't met any women who says that labor is painless. Then the baby is sucked out with a vacuum and thats not supposed to leave damage. How natural is that oh and they also have a test know a days that you can take to see if your child will be handicapped and if it is you have an option to abort it. Its only 10 percent affective. They also recently put "plan B" on the market. The drug that they give rape victims you could only get it in the hospital. It helps prevent getting some STD's and if you happen to be pregnant it will take care of that. Love how I went from one subject to another I always do that. Men are so different they aren't emotional beings they live in the moment. They get into fights and the next day. Lets go play Golf. They fight physically not mentally like women. God created us to have harmony not so that men had a toy to play with but to share life to share in the beauty of what God did. So why is it that the church can't see it that way. There is more of a sexist fight in church's then there is in offices. Why can't we live in harmony. Why is it in asian countries do women have to fight to live. Women are not treat with respect but they bring shame to families. Baby girls are sold into the sex trade and are aborted and left on the side of the road, even killed. How is that fare.............

My conclusion boys are inconciderate

So I guess its been a while since I blogged. So Here's a recent one to read.... I like to vent alot because it keeps me from exploding on different people and well I doubt that there are people who read my blog... I'm not an exciting person... So yesturday it was sunday good sun shining day in the evening went hot tubing with the C&C at my church, They have the potential to be great weloming people at time and then there are other times when they can be complete jerks -if I'm not to bold to say- We were going to a couples house to hot tub...I didn't know were I was going but one of the guys did so I followed.

So heres some tips when you are a lead car:
#1 always use your signal
#2 make sure that the cars are behind you at all times
#3 If you happen to lose people at the lights wait for them (pull over to the side of the street or phone them on there cell)
#4 DO NOT MAKE SUDDEN TURNS WITH OUT ANY NOTICE... IT MAY CAUSE AN ACIDENT AND OH ANOTHER THING IF YOU DO THIS DON'T LAUGH AT THEM BECAUSE IT'S YOUR FAULT TOO...OH AND THAT JUST MAKES THE OTHER DRIVER EVEN MORE PISSED OFF...

Another thing that I was annoyed with Guys turn into complete JERKS when they are with other guys... Make females feel like complete trash .....
Thats my rant for today...

Shameless Hacking

So, Kimmy G here- I have successfully hacked Amy's blog. Why? Because i'm awesome. What shall I do with this oppertunity? I could talk about leg shaving... or.... caffiene.... or even excessive gas! So many great things I could put. How about instead, I talk about how awesome I am?

I am cool, I am rad, and I am, indeed, awesome.

Uhh... what else?

check out my blog... it has video's of Amy and I....

www.mycrazyness.blogspot.com

I love shameless promotion- that's another thing about me.

and... because i'm cool, it means my myspace is also cool...

www.myspace.com/comestepinsidemymind

There.

Oh yah, Amy is cool too.

That's why she's lucky enough to be my friend ;)

lol, just jokes.

She's rad....

like popcorn.

Sunday night

So yesturday was just like every other sunday, Thats how it started out. Came home from church decided I was going to make chocolate chip cookies for C&C because we decided to live out loud and go hand out coffee to the homeless. Not a big deal right, they will gladly except because it was really windy and cold (because its saskatchewan). So I arrive early to help with making coffee and so there was John, Ashley, Lee and myself. My dorm and bible school would do this alot instead of coffee they would hand out sandwhiches. So I really didn't have any fear except the fact that if your white and walking around 20th and you cross paths with the wrong people they will beat you up for no reason. (its been known to all if you live in the city). So I was comfortable but alittle nervous. Met some people some told us there stories some just accepted the coffee and went on there way thankful for something to warm them. We also had toques and mitts. So seeing as there was 2 guys and 2 girls we split off. Ashley and John were a Team and Lee and I were a team.

Something was different that night, I felt uneasy the whole day like God was preparing me for something big. I haven't gotten this feeling in a while, I usually get it at camp when I'm counselling. So I was like alright whats going to happen, I prayed and kept on serving. Met a guy name Gustoff who just needed a break he was from Quebec, mean while this women walks by us, I knew that she wasn't alright. She just seemed scared and flustured. Later on I find out that Lee didn't notice her just me. So Gustoff got on his bus and we kept walking and talking about the guy we just met.

We turn around to go back because we hit a dead end, and out of this building the women comes out and walks our way. I offer her a cup of coffee, and instantly this women breaks down and cries, She composes herself and then asks do we know were the YWCA was. Lee wasn't of course familuar with the city yet. but me living her all my life new were it should be. She asks is it in walking distants I say no. I new that I should offer her a ride but is that were she really wants to go. So I prayed and quick prayer and we offered her a ride of course Lee comes to keep me safe my personal body guard. We drop her off and lee goes in to make sure that she is taken care of. But he can't go much farther because he is a male. So I go with her. This women is 30 years old and in one day lost every thing. Its taken me a while to process what happened last night but I know one thing that God is an awesome God. I don't want to use her name because I don't think that its relavent. I will never for get her. 6 months ago or so she had just gotten out of a 10 year abusive relationship, she is from a recerve up north past P.A. She has 5 children all in care because her home wasn't a safe enviroment. It was a wake up call to her. She has been trying to make a name for her self so that she can get her children back. Every word of her story breaks my heart.

She trusted in her friend that she met through one of her courses and her friend has a house out her and that she could stay with them. She woke up and they were gone her clothes and everything. GONE. No trace of it any were. She was a lone in a deserted house in a city she had no clue about. No food no warm clothes and the knowledge of Jesus. She was a born again believer. The land lord came and kicked her out. Were was she to go. She wondered the streets all day looking for the YWCA and prayed. Me and Lee helped her we were her answer. What if I decided not to go because I didn't believe that what we were doing wasn't going to matter to someone. Let me tell you something having that attitude is not a christian attitude. How can any one call themselves christians if all they do is go to church on sunday. What kind of mountains is there faith moving. We ignore them but we should be loving them. We should be filling there bellies and clothing them and giving them a place to sleep. This women trusted her friend and she had no idea what was going to happen. Why did he choose me. I don't know. I will never forget last night. How can I keep living the way I used to after an experience like that. What more can I do? I have prayed non stop for her. What if we weren't out? where would she be right know? would she have gotten help? This is a true story this is what happened to me and lee. What are you going to do?

The Vision

So I came across this poem or not sure if it is that. We talked about it in C&C one night and well its a thinker. It was found at a 24/7 prayer event on a wall, so here it is.

The vision

So this guy comes up to me and says "Whats the vision? What's the big idea?"

I open my mouth and words come out like this...
The vision?

The vision is JESUS - obsessivly, dangerously, undeniably Jesus.
The vision is an army of young people.
You see bones? I see an army. And they are free from materialism.


They laugh at 9-5 little prisons.
They could eat caviar in Monday and crusts on Tuesday.
They wouldn't even notice.
They know the meaning of the matrix, the way the west was won.
They are mobile like the wind, they belong to the nations.
They need no passport...
People write their addresses in pencil and wonder at their strange existence.
They are free yet they are slaves of the hurting and dirty and dying.
What is the vision?

The vision is holiness the hurts the eyes.
It makes children laugh and adults angry
It gave up the game of minimum integrity long ago to reach for the stars.
It scorns the good and strains for the best. It is dangerously pure.

Light flickers from every secret motive, every private conversation.
It loves people away for their suicide leaps, their satan games.
This is an army that will lay down its life for the cause.
A million times a day its soldiers choose to loose that they might one day win the great
'Well done' of faithful sons and daughters.
Such heroes are as radical on Monday morning as Sunday night. They don't need fame from
names. Instead they grin quietly upwards and hear the crowds chanting again and again:
"come on!"

And this is the sound of the underground
The whisper of history in the making
Foundations shaking
Revonlutionaries dreaming once again
Mystery is scheming in whispers
conspiracy is breathing...
This is the sound of the underground And the Army is descipl(in)ed.

Young people who beat their bodies into submission.
Every soldier would take a bullet for his comrade at arms.
The tattoo on their back boasts "for me to live is Christ and to die is gain".
Sacrifice fuels the fire of victory in their upward eyes.
Winners.
Martyrs.
Who can stop them ?
Can hormones hold them back?
Can failure succeed?
Can fear scare them or death kill them?
And the generation prays
like a dying man
with groans beyond talking
with warrior cries, sulphric tears and
with great barrow loads of laughter!
Waiting. Watching: 24-7 - 365.
Whatever it takes they will give:
Breaking the rules.
Shaking mediocrity from its cosy little hide.
Laying down their rights and their precious little wrongs, laughing at labels, fasting essentials.

The advertisers cannot mould them.
Hollywood cannot hold them.
Peer pressure is powerless to shake their resolve at late night parties before the cockerel cries

They are incredibly cool, dangerously attractive
inside.
On the outside?
They hardly care.
They wear clothes like costumes to communicate and celebrate but never to hide.
Would they surrender their image or their popularity?
They would lay down their very lives - swap seats with the man on death row - guilty as hell.
A throne for an electric chair.


With blood and sweat and many tears, with sleepless nights and fruitless days,
they pray as if it all depends on God and live as if it all depends on them.

Their DNA chooses JESUS. (He breathes out, they breathe in.)
Their subconcious sings.
They had a blood transfusion with Jesus.
Their words make demons scream in shopping centres.
Don't you hear them coming?
Herold the weirdo's!
Summon the losers and the freaks.
Here come the frightened and forgotten with fire in their eyes.
They walk tall and trees applaud,
Skyscrapers bow,
mountains are dwarfed by these children of another dimension.
Their prayers summon the hounds of heaven and invoke the ancient dream of eden.
And this vision will be. IT will come to pass; it will come easily; it will come soon.
How do I know?
Because this is the longing of creation itself, the groaning of the Spirit, the very dream of God.
My tomorrow is his today.
Mydistant hope is his 3D.
And my feelbe, whispered, faithless prayer invokes a thunderous, resounding, bone-shaking
great 'Amen!'
from countless angels, from hero's of the faith, from christ himself.
And he is the original dreamer, the ultimate winner.
Guaranteed.

Lent

I decided to do lent this year, For 40 days you give up something that you are very attached to or what ever the case maybe and for me its caffeine I luv chocolate and tea and coffee. This is already on me I love coke to much and well today went out shopping with my mom and we went to Walmaet and guess what they had Caffeine free coke so excited oh and it doesn't have as much fizz as regular coke but its out there. I hope that this will fool my body in to thinking that it is drinking Coke hopfully won't get migrains haven't had them yet but who knows. it started on the 18th of Febuary. so the second day almost over.

Some Baby Info

Any way if you don't know I'm going to be an anty yeah how fun is that going to be. So me and mom are not allowed to go to any store that has baby stuff. The other day she comes home from superstore and has a pile of baby clothes that she bought. Today she bought out walmart of all the cute sales items for boys. Bothe of my sisters are expecting Lyn and Ang. So we have a pile of clothes and they aren't even born yet. They are due in June 3 weeks apart. Ang is due on the 10th and Lyn on the 30th. Ang has had the weirdest cravings she can eat a cosco size pickle jar in a week and she likes raw potatoes. Lyn hasn't had any weird cravings. check out Lyns baby blog. Babyepp.blogspot.com

About me

If you want to see some crazy footage of me and Kimmy G go to her Blog. Mycrazyness.blogspot.com

New building

So yesterday was fun, found out that our church is going to have a building. For almost 5 years know we have been out of a church because of a fire that happened. according to the fire men it was one of the hottest fires they have fought in a long time. My brothers friend was one of the fire fighters. It was a beautiful church. On the out side it looked normal and that we would be able to stay in our building not true on the inside it was unsafe and they recommended we tear it down and start over. Its been really hard, I stopped going to our membership meetings because i couldn't stand being around that negativity all the time and the fighting they all sound like a bunch of little kids. We do have property out on Dalmeny road but its going to cost us a fortune to rebuild there. So finally after looking at buildings and some other property we found a church that was going to sell there building because they are building else were. its a Catholic church I hope that this is an answer to prayer and that people aren't going to be to picky. That this is something that we can agree on as a church. Lots of stuff come out of that fire, people changed and things came to the surface that should have never come up.

God works in so many ways.

I'm so weak but he is strong

So really tired I should go to bed but i just have to blog. So I'm. Its been really crazy this past little while, looking back at my Bible school dayz and how pumped I was to be learning so much. I was a sponge. My school Rocky mountain college they really challenfed us to put our faith into action. I got involved in so many ministry options. I was involved in Choir and that in it self was awesome, you could argue that your just performing how is that glorifying God. Being all about striving for excellent but isn't that what we should be offering our excellence in the gifts that God has blessed us with.
So many amazing things came out of that for me. I became confident in myself and I grew out of the box that I set for myself. I don't remeber were we where on our 2 week tour but there was this lady there with her family she hosted me some other girls. She had cancer and she didn't know how long she had and just the message in some of the songs that we sang they touched her heart. It was so humbling to know that we blessed people through the songs that we sang. Any way our dorm also went to down town Calgary some sundays just to hand out sandwiches to the homeless. It opened my eyes so much, there were so many of them I could not believe it. Icouldn't understand why there were so many of them. Then to think saskatoon doesn't have this many homeless, either I just ignored in all the years that I lived in Saskatoon or I don't know but i got a wake up call when i moved back. I also went on a missions trip to El salvador we built 5 houses in 5 days intense and we were there for 10 days. I was just so awesome to be part of that. The one family that we were building the house for they were a family of 6 and half there house was a chicken coop and the other half they lived in and it was falling apart and becoming very unsafe to live in. So we built them this house and just the feeling of being part of something so small that is apart of a bigger picture thats awesome. I remeber coming away from that expereince so changed and on fire for God. I couldn't get enough of him and know I can't even open the bible. I want to so badly I want to get to know him all over again I want to fall in love with him. I want him to be my centre, so badly that my heart aches. Please pray for me that I can have some one on one time that I can schedule him in to my crazy life so that he can help me manage it. I'm so week, but he is strong.

stressed human

I think that God is trying to teach me something theses dayz. Not sure what it is but my life has been changing drastically. I'm an Assistant Manager at a Ten Thousand Villages store and its part time and thee other times I work in the office at JnE Welding. At ttv they think that I'm to young to do my Job, I'm 21 and maybe I'm who no's. I'm also a youth leader and sunday school teacher and sing on a worship team in my church. I have a busy life. Every day I'm tired stressed and put on a happy mask when I go to youth because I'm not there for me but for my girls, They are wonderful and so full of life and I can't wait to see were they will be in 10 years. They are growing spirtually and becoming more aware of who they are every day. I treat them like my own sisters and I don't no what i would do if they ever got hurt by someone.
Any I easily get distracted in my train of thought. I find it so hard just to open the bible and read because i'm so exausted. I really need to find a quiet time in my day. I'm totally not a morning person and by the time the day is done i'm exausted. How people do it and keep there sanity.

This is my concern

This is my concern these dayz!
Boys growing up in the delusion that they have to wear this new boby spray (Axe) and women will just flolk to you in heards. ITS NOT TRUE THEY ARE LYING TO YOU! and in the process sufficating us with that stentch. OH and heres a type if you going to wear it, 1 SPRAY Will do the trick if you smell sweaty were some of that stuff they call deoderant do not substitute I repeat do not substitute. If your in an enclosed room and there are a lot of you and u happen to Fart do not cover it with the spray of Axe. Some of us are allergic to strong sents and we suffer from sinus infections, alot of the time. So spare us please and use proper hygene procedures.
This is my concern.
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