Thoughts

So my summer so far has been work and less play. I do love my job they give me oppurtunities to grow and they also teach me alot. I have also taken alot of initiative which was never given the chance to at my previous jobs. I worried as well how long will this job last. I have quit and been lay offed because they closed there doors and also fired because I was in experience and to young to do my Job and that was from a christian based store. Lovely hey, so know I'm nervous but also excited about this job. Thanks to my good friend Kimmies mom who got me this job and I have excelled. It's kinda funny because I said when I was younger I would never work at an office because I never wanted to be tied down all day. I think Gods kinda laughing about that. I also know that he's been challenging me this year. This year went from Organizing and keeping the youth program alive in our church while they hire a youth pastor. That was an eye opener, I guess I didn't realize how much it took to run a youth program so it would stay alive. Probaly did half the work that Pastor Lee does and yes I call him Pastor Lee why you might ask because I think that it is a respect thing, I do occasionally slip up and call him Lee but for me to call him Pastor Helps me not to take him for granted. He is doing such an amazing Job I can't believe it, I pray everyday for him to not burn himself out.

Then I took some time off of youth it wasn't long probably a month. Why some might ask why I did that. Because I forgot about God, How did I do that you might ask. I took so much on that I forgot to breath. I didn't have a night to myself between worship band, youth and being a sunday school teacher to the same kids I see at youth. Also had a job on top of that. I got reconnected abit but I still struggle everyday. This summer I'm working full time and that took away from me being at camp kadesh. I miss it there, being with those kids and counselling in a cabin I love every minute of it. I started reading Jesus Lover of a womens soul, It really neat hering the stories and details behind someof the stories in the bible about women.

I'm glad I have the summer off, us youth leaders have to prepare for this meeting we have coming up in August. We are talking about our missions statement also talking about caricullum, designing a volunteer application and deciding on a name for our youth group. I really don't know what to name our youth group, never created a missions statement before and I don't now what to teach the kids in youth. I can't stop thinking about it, You can't just have any old name it needs to be challenging and thought provoking and don't forget cool.

Also I see a big challenge coming up in our family a big one that is going to be hard this fall. My Grandma who is not doing so well, She is slowly going down hill. she just is giving up, It sad really it is. Me and my two cousins brianne and Janelle we are close in age and we used to be inseperable. She didn't remeber who we are. At first it was sad and it kinda hurt a bit. It hurts to much to see that its slowly breaking my heart. I know that she is not going to make it till christmas. She got sick recently and they have to use a lift to get her in and out of bed, when before she could do it with the assistants of a nurse. she can't even remeber what she reads.

My Weekend

So I now that I should be working right know but thats not possible yet any way. So I'm going to post. Some of you have noticed my grammar and spelling, I have noticed and well I really can't explain it. I used to be at the top of my class with spelling. Some think I have gotten lazy and don't care. which by the way is not true. Some grammar I get and some is just confussing because no one has explained it correctly. In high school english they used to give us grammar work sheets and we went to town. Grammar lessons stopped in Grade 8 after that you were given work sheets and you had to figure it out on your owne. It gets really bad when I'm tired I forget letters and stuff. Believe it or not I do read through and edit.

So this past weekend went to Camp Kadesh and spent time with my sista from a different mista. It make sense to us. Any way me and John were there. I had an awesome weekend any way not sure about John. We kinda pooped him out a bit well maybe alot. If you know me and kimmy we can be a little out there sometimes. Even random at times. So we get there friday head in to PA because thats the thing to do. She wanted to make us some Iced Coffee so we head to shoppers, she bought cream for it of course the flavored stuff. She saw this random frog kiddy pool and bought it. If you now john he can pretty much fold in half. I do have pics maybe I will post them, he won't know. So we decide that night to go Kyaking and swimming. Johns first time. So we went and faintly in the sky was the pallest of green dancing in the sky Northern lights. People say that they only appear in August well thats not true because I saw them all three of us did.
Then we went for a late night swim. John can't swim that good so we made him wear a Lifejacket and gave him a noodle. It was funny and we got eaten a live by lovely bugs. Then all three of us woke up to watch the sun rise. Thats right we woke up at 4 AM to whatch the sun rise it was awesome John played his guitar and we sang and did silly things and watched the fish jump. It was cool because on one side of the lake there was a thunder and lighting storm and on the other side where we were there was the sun rise. It was beautiful. We went back to bed and me and kimmy were in a cabin and John was in his tent. The storm made its way over shortly after that and well if you have ever experienced a thunderstorm up north in a cabin with thin walls. It feels like minor tremors after an earth quake its scary. So we made John sleep in a cabin. Then we went to PA to go shopping because it was her brothers birthday. Of course we dragged John with us. We got side tracked once at stitches cause the had ober cute shirts. John did buy a shirt it's cute or should i say sharp. He said that we were pretty good but he won't go shopping with girls anytime soon. We got back and John went straight to his tent and slept till late that night. I bought streamers to decorate my sisters office because I could and gave her peanut butter MM's. We did go swimming in the after noon and played with the frog and surf bords and I got to blob one of the staff, who was a former camper of mine. Oh then we sent John on the Jungle swing then they dared me to go and I freaked I don't no why I did and I failed a dare.

News Flash Amy failed a dare that never happens now John is never going to let me live that down niether will kimmy. One of these days I will get over my fear. I did go on the Whipper witch is higher then this swing. The only nerve racking thing about the whipper is the free fall part and going up the rickitty latter. Then it was sunday and well we left around noon I didn't want to leave because I didn't want to go back to work. I love my job but I don't like the person that I will be stuck sharing a desk with. She likes to shove her work onto me. I do have a confession though I went to another spa party and bought an the instant manicure now my hands will be wonderful.

I know that guys have a hard time grasping the concept of why women like spas and pampering them selves. Well women like physical touch thats why they like holding hands and cuddling. Plus is something that we get to do for our selves we get to feel rejuvenated and fresh and relaxed and not worry in that moment what we need to do. The best gift someone could give me is anything to do with spas. Anything that I can do for my self to make me feel great.

Sorry all my Male readers

So I have a beef and it's not going a way and it will always be a problem. Now I could hate Eve because she is techniquely, Why women every were suffer and I'm not just talking about my monthly but how much it cost to be one. The other day I had to go and out and buy a bathing suite a good supporting one well, because I don't have the smallest of chest witch by the way is not fun. I do have some workable ones but when your playing water b-ball they are not practical they just don't hold the girls in so I went to the only specialty swim wear shop and I paid $100 for one. I could have gotten one at sears or walmart but seriously I don't won't one that looks old ladyish. Also I want it to last more then a month. I don't get why they can't be a descent price I have a hard time spending that much on clothes. No I'm not PMS ing right now I'm just annoyed. It costed me $30 or more for Faminen Products, Shampoo and Conditioner, Body Wash, Shaving Gel. Thats roughly what women have to pay these days thats not including make-up and don't get me started on that. The Slogan have a "Happy period", sorry but thats not possible when your suffering from cramps and you just want to reach in a yank out your uterus and drinking water sorry I retain enough fluids already don't need any more in me, when I'm menstrating. Going and excercise will ease you of your cramps, The only thing that will relieve me of is bitting off a males head. I hate it when guys say its not that bad, ok well then how is having fainting spells and throughing up and shooting pain like someone is constintly twisting your insides not that bad. I could just smack them................

FaMiLy

This is the newest edition to our family, Danica Joelle Caroline Epp, She is my Niece. Why the big name you might ask is because Caroline is my Grandmas middle name. Our Grandma is really special to all of us. She takes the time to talk to us to get to know us. I love her and all her crazy stories she has from when she was our age. She celebrated her 85th birthday May 26th, I want to share pics with you, from wolsley, SK.


Me and my Oldest sister Arleen who is the Assistant Camp Director at Camp Kadesh. We are on the swinging bridge.

This is my Family left to right we have Anthony and Lynette she is pregnant in this picture with Danica the Dad and myself, Mom and Arleen who is dating Arlen right beside her, Then we have Ang and Russ in the Back and she is also pregnant with Liam. but you can't see her belly.

The lovly youg Lady in the middle is my Grandma Betty Willway and her Three Girls my Aunts, Left to right Jeanette. My mom Shirley and Barbara.

The bellys

This just in I have a Niece, yep Thats right a nephew and a Neice all in one month.
Her name is Danica Joel Caroline Epp. 8lbs 11oz. Haven't seen her yet. She was born at 9:49pm June 28th. So Like I said it will be awesome see them grow this summer..........
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So this summer is going to be different. Way different, I usually take a few weeks off and go work up a Camp Kadesh. Its steller. Most beautiful place to be. It's located on a prime place at christopher lake. It's simply gorgeous darling you must see it. Any way this year I can't. I started a new Full time job and being full time you can't take as much time as you want to take off. I will miss pillow fights and popcorn parties and camp fires the breathe taking northern lights. All the fun stuff the you do with a cabin full of girls.





This will be a time were I can spend on me, thats wierd to say I never take the time any more to tap in to what God has for me. I have to be honest I don't know when I read my bible last. I'm a youth leader I'm supposed to be into the bible every day soking it in. I'm also a sunday school teacher but next year i won't be to busy. Between youth and worship band. This summer I'm going to have me time. Its going to be hard but I'm going to do it. I want to find who I am in christ, I know longer want to be defined by my friends. I don't understand it all yet but I will get there.





I also need to find an appartment for me and kimmy to live in for the fall. Hopefully I can. It will be nice to spread my wings again. It will be a great summer whatching Liam Russel. Grow this summer and spoil him.

Another rant from yours trully

So Yep I'm an Aunty its great. I have a Nephew Liam Russel Ens adorable guy. So excited about it and in a couple more weeks I will become an aunty one more time. Maybe a girl.....

So I have an issue with MSN yep thats right I do. I do think that its a great idea you don't want to talk on the phone thats fine just log into msn and have a convo with someone either who is long distance (saves on phone bills) but the thing is. Know one really sees how you truely react. With out realizing you offend someone. Yep you do, It can happen as simply as not responding quick enough to someone when you are busy doing something else or If you leave it on. I'm famous for that one. I don't understand how you can see that I'm not going to talk to you when there is no problem in the first place. They jump from extreme to another why is that. When I phone a friend on the phone and they don't answer I don't think for one instant they are ignoring my call so why is it so different on msn.

So I will be posting baby pics soon I just have to filter through them a bit.... So stay tuned more to come.........

just some random thoughts

So this month is my birthday month, The month in which I celebrate my life and how old I am. I just turned 22. Its exciting but a little weird, 22 not much has changed ecept that I have a car know I still live at home. Not by choice It was either I bought a car or move out. I work with you so it makes sense that I buy a car, seeing as most of them live out of town. Also recently I have a wonderful job, but tomorrow is last day of probation, Last job they fired me 2 days before it was over. So naturally I have angziety about that. I also pierced my nose. I thought that I would be sneezing alot seeing as I do that a lot when there is something there like a booger. Yep thats right. I have also decided to move out with my bestfriend who is like a sister to me, I'm kinda nervous can't deny that. Its a big decision but if I pace and have a strick buget it will be ok. We were thinking Osler, the more I think about the more I get excited but then I think about how much gas would I be using and with the prices would that be fesible. I also have another head ache me and my other friend both like the same guy. He's a great guy i won't deny that but it seems to me that we have more in common. but maybe its delusion. and thats another thing I like a guy and then bam, I put my self down saying how he deserves a better girl, someone who isn't damaged like I am. Its a crazy world out there. but for me I actually like him as a friend. In all my life I have never had a friend ship with a male. Only because I hated them, I thought all guys were the same. The typical mennonite thinking women should be seen and not heard. Well I think thats crock. But know that I'm older there are still men who think that whether they know it or not. Sometimes there actions speak louder then words. I have come to a realization that God has created us different yes but for a reason so that we may live in harmony, something that Satan likes to mess with. Have you noticed latly that Women are emontionally strong and Men are physically strong. God created us so differently the reason why we are so emotional and nuturing because we are to be instruments in which we teach young people today, We have something so special, I hate that satan has a different option out there that is more devistating. I don't get how they can say that it won't hurt. When in fact they have to enduse labor. I haven't met any women who says that labor is painless. Then the baby is sucked out with a vacuum and thats not supposed to leave damage. How natural is that oh and they also have a test know a days that you can take to see if your child will be handicapped and if it is you have an option to abort it. Its only 10 percent affective. They also recently put "plan B" on the market. The drug that they give rape victims you could only get it in the hospital. It helps prevent getting some STD's and if you happen to be pregnant it will take care of that. Love how I went from one subject to another I always do that. Men are so different they aren't emotional beings they live in the moment. They get into fights and the next day. Lets go play Golf. They fight physically not mentally like women. God created us to have harmony not so that men had a toy to play with but to share life to share in the beauty of what God did. So why is it that the church can't see it that way. There is more of a sexist fight in church's then there is in offices. Why can't we live in harmony. Why is it in asian countries do women have to fight to live. Women are not treat with respect but they bring shame to families. Baby girls are sold into the sex trade and are aborted and left on the side of the road, even killed. How is that fare.............